moving

assalamualaikum,

will be deleting this blog but currently updating through my new site :) 
till then ~

3months and 17days

last week was an unusual week for me. well because everything is new i guess. new university, new surrounding, new class, new friends and the list goes on and on. and now i feel like babbling here.

since high school i dont really had homesick problem compared to some of my friends. im pretty mush heartless i could say. but now i really do miss home. very much.

1year and counting

Well they said good things happen in the blink of an eye.
I guess its true somehow

Life according to book

Its 2014 ! It had been a week now in 2014. I know its a bit late, but HAPPY NEW YEAR :)

Its a new book, i know its cliche to say such thing but who cares. But so sad to say that i stuck with one same problem. Im not the type person that would think about my own problem but this matter really did hunt me down till these very moment. Everytime i pushed it aside it keep on coming back. And right now im imagining chewing gum somehow. But that doesnt matter now.

Whenever i try to make things clear, the must be someone or something that would always make it blurrer. Im always stick to my opinions and decisions but this not is more than tricky. And it end up making me look more desperate than what i would like to actually act. Friend is more than enough for me and i never ever thought anything beyond that line. I treat everyone the same, well not on the special case. I have my own list too, everyone does right, well i thought so. 

Erm anyway, hope things go well for 2014, insyaAllah. 

Why

Its freezing cold nowdays. When i say freezing, i really mean freezing. Feel like walking in a giant fridge. I am excited to see snow and all but seriously winter will be on my hate-list. Remembering all the vocab really abusing my brain. Another one book and half to go. Still be alive at that time i guess.

Why?

This is out of topic, its not seasonal or what so ever. But seriously why. Im know im not going to get an answer but whatever, just feeling like typing why why why. 

Tomorrow will a new day. Hope that tomorrow will be better than today. Its not even past 12am yet but, early wish doesnt effect anything right. Okay gotta continue filling my head with this vocabs and i just realise that im being exaggerating everything lately. Did i even spell that right ? =="

Its the start but its actually an end

Today is monday. The first day of school for level 6. New class, but im glad that my classmates rocks ! Its fascinating and exciting but then i realise that i would be the last time i get to share class with my batchmates. Well i not that i'll not meet some of them later on but there'll be ones that i can bearly even meet in a month. Not matter how annoying or how i hate to meet eyes with them each day, i'll still gonna miss our moments. Well thats sounds crazy and quite psychotic like - or chessy but hey, i like cheese pizza if that counts. Anyway despite my heartbreaking headslamming time last week, hope it would turn out great. Well coming out alive would be enough.

spilling everything out

i know it had been ages since i even logged in into my blog account but right now im not myself and feel like spilling everything out. i always thought that im motivated enough to just keep calm on everything but i guess i had been keeping for too long, and it had passed my enduring limit. need someone to talk to, had been trying actually but all i get was more pain. can i even can say that. anyway i guess im scared of making the same mistake that i eventually give up before i can really try. i should have think first before doing anything . now it had involved someone else and now i feel sorry for that person but there are nothing much that i could do. it end and i dont really want to remember about it. not a single thing but it hunt me for quite some time.

when im scared of making the same mistakes, what i actually do was taking the easy way out which is running away and erasing it - not that i realise what i was doing, panic attack maybe.